Relapse is worse than the first shock

Remember how it was painful the first time? Take it and multiply a million times — that’s how a relapse would naturally feel. When you think you’re doing just fine and then one day it all blows up in your face — that you’re not fine, not a single fvcking bit, that’s relapsing.
 
I had a good conversation with a friend earlier. He said, “I remember when I first saw you, you were a rock star. You have this confident vibration, you exude positive energy, you do things for yourself and you enjoy being yourself no matter how people sees you. That’s the Cai I know. But you are not her right now. You’re vibrations are all over the place.”
 
My friend asked me, “Do you believe in destiny?”, and I was like, “What destiny?”
 
“That there’s someone meant for you.”
 
“Well, I’d like to believe there is.”
 
“He’s out there. But he will not […]

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